Friday, 6th of July

Despite Dexter Phillips’ calm demeanour, in spite of the casualness with which he delivered the news, the room fell silent at that point. We had come here to help after all, to put ourselves in a position where we could alert the rest of the world what is about to happen. The reason we came here was to be the warning beacon, the recue guard. Instead Dexter Phillips was making it clear to us that his vision saw this commune as the life-raft, we are the few chosen ones who will escape and set up a new world beyond the one we have now. Everything we have ever known will be gone, everyone we have ever loved will be dead (or now a slavering maniac, unrecognisable from the people they were before) and we would be asked to stride forward into this brave new world – as what? A group of Adams and Eves? Colonists from the past trying to carve out the future?
I think Dexter Phillips was surprised that when he delivered his talk with an almost breezy demeanour, some people began to cry.

Wednesday, 4th of July

Dexter Phillips’ message was stark, but delivered with a calm which seemed to me later almost eerie. He was the one person standing in the room – the rest of us sit on the floor – and he moved among us like a hip, young university lecturer addressing an informal study group. His tone had that quality too, conversational, casual, as if what we were discussing was not that big a deal at all. Or maybe that’s unfair, perhaps there was a slight sharpness to his tone – but no more than a weatherman letting the great British public know there was a nasty storm on the way.
The end of the world is coming, he told us, and we are the ones best prepared.

Monday, 2nd of July

The same dream two nights in a row for all of us. Again we all woke up having seen visions of The Manor appearing over the hill as a haven, a sanctuary. Once more this caused a buzz of excitement around the dining room in the morning. As having spent the last few weeks discussing the same dreams we’ve all endured for months on end, this is something exciting.
Only Dexter Phillips was unperturbed, only he retained his calm. Finally Elvina/Denise asked why – and his reply was astonishing.

Apparently he’s been having this very dream for months, seeing this house as a sanctuary – and that was one of the reasons why he brought us here to Wales. He has determined that London is not safe (indeed no cities are), that it’s tainted. As he explained this to us, he even pointed to me and said that the same thing is in my book, a sense of London as a place filled with danger and fear. That’s why he wanted us to leave. Not that we could all be together in the country necessarily, but so we could all be safe from London.

We are the chosen ones he told us, and so we have to be together and protected away from those in the towns and cities.

Sunday, 1st of July

A new dream!
It is afterwards. After the object has fallen from the sky, after the virus has infected the majority of the human race. I am staggering in the darkness through the countryside. My legs ache and my feet are blistered, as if I’ve been running for days. In the distance I wonder if I can hear these ‘new’ people, the infected ones, but in my rational mind I know that they mainly stay in the towns and cities – better pickings there. They are not going to pursue me over fields and hillocks, and yet still I run.

It’s incredibly dark. Of course it’s been dark for a long time now, but the countryside is like stumbling through sheer blackness. I have fallen and tumbled so many times, I even think my shoulder might be fractured. But still I go on, even though I know there’s only a small chance I’m being chased, it’s still enough to spur me forwards.

Suddenly I find myself at a ridge. Hearing (or imagining) some nearby sound, I desperately try to scrabble up at it, kicking away with my feet and aching arm. Finally I pull myself to the top and beyond is like heaven.

There’s a house, a grand old house, but one that is actually lit and so looks protected. The light from it shines into the sky so ethereal. With a gasp of joy I start pelting towards it.

I dreamt this in my room within The Manor, a large house in West Wales. The house in my dream – and we all had the same dream last night – is clearly The Manor.

Thursday, 28th of June

So what are we going to do about it? What are we going to do with the fact that we thirteen are seemingly the only ones who can see the end of the world is very nigh? Dexter Phillips has become much more gnomic about this, wary of opening his mouth to any pronouncement. He stares at us, he nods knowingly when asked, but the great schemes he talked of before we got here seem to have temporarily gone quiet.
Why that is I don’t know, and it frustrates the hell out of me. Forget the economic crisis, Barclays Bank or any of the other nonsense I see in the news these days – something truly serious is about to happen.

Monday, 25th of June

So, what about what about the thing which raises itself up from below? The beast which, in my Surrey Quays dreams, smashes apart the tarmac seemingly determined to destroy us all? In that particular dream I’m stood outside the shopping centre, feeling a terrifying sense of dread that seems shared by everyone around me. Then, suddenly, the world shakes and the pavement bursts to reveal something. What it is I don’t know, but I’m sure I have seen it in my night visions and think that it was so terrible that my mind has just blocked it out.
We have all had variations of this dream, we’ve all experienced the dread of this primal force rising up from below our feet – from the very core of the earth – to devour every one of us.

But what does it mean? The vision that’s most persuasive suggests something will drop from the sky and unleash a virus likely to destroy us all. So what is this terrible thing from below? How does that fit in? Sometimes, now we’re all together (and the power of these dreams seems a hundredfold more intense, now we are altogether), we all get the sense that something is watching us. Others think that we are monitored by forces (government or other) somehow, but I occasionally have the thought that it’s the thing below looking up and wondering how we’re coming along.

Sunday, 24th of June

We dream each night, then talk all day and discuss what (if anything) we are going to do. I have never felt so much part of a community, but I’ve also never felt so lonely as well. Here we are in a big manor house in West Wales, the only thirteen people – perhaps in the world – who share these experiences, and it allows us a window into each other’s souls. Over the course of each day we don’t just talk about our dreams (that might be a recipe for insanity), but bond as we discuss other things and find out what we have in common. I am part of something here, something that is incredibly and uncannily special.
However I am also very alone. Each night we sleep by ourselves – which of course is better to aid our dreams – but it means that I miss Julie. Even though I see her in the day, she is just one of the group now – the member I know best, but still one of thirteen alike souls. I am making new friends, forging new connections, but in the process I seem to have lost my girlfriend.

Dexter Phillips is right though, we need to concentrate on the dreams. A bruised heart is going to be the least of our worries when this thing slams into Earth and it all begins.

Thursday, 21st of May

The world afterwards is a dark and nightmarish place, where those few of us who survive and aren’t infected (what is it about us that makes us immune to infection? Do the dreams give us some kind of protection?) live a life on the margins. The air is heavy and clogged with ash, and all around us is the next stage of man – one which has given us all semblances of civilisation, and where cannibalism and horrific violence are not only the norm, but a source of great pleasure. We real survivors have to creep around them, knowing that like all hunters their senses are heightened, and if they were to intuit our presence their fingers would dig deep beneath our flesh and rip our bones from their sockets.
Out here in Wales the dreams are so intense that we can spend the first half hour of a morning just holding each other as a group, trying to briefly protect ourselves from what’s to come.

Wednesday, 20th of June

And yet the consequences of this, whatever it is, aren’t confined to London. Those of us in the Capital see the survivors as a rampaging crowd, a violent and ruthless band of feral beasts – but everyone across the world also sees their fellow man in the same terms. But I don’t see that as an echo of what’s happening in London, as the others have dreams where they are ripped apart by their friends and family. In their minds, in great detail, they are tortured and killed by their loved ones. These aren’t complete strangers, these aren’t far away echoes, this is something that happening to them.
Something is going to crash into the planet, and with it will come this plague of violence.

Tuesday, 19th of May

But how can all of us - who in geographic location, range across the UK, Ireland, Germany and the States – see the same thing striking the Earth? Clearly when the sky rips jagged, torn apart in a mix of reds and blacks, it cannot be the same meteorite we’re seeing. One of the theories which has been suggested is that it’s a meteor shower, that there are dozens of huge projectiles coming at us from different angles. What we’re witnessing is a huge celestial storm hitting the solar system and destroying our planet as we know it.

Except, those of us domiciled in London see it far more vivid and colourful than anyone else. (We have now taken to drawing the pictures of our dreams and the hues are far more vivid for those of us in the English capital). The theory I subscribe to is that what those overseas are seeing is an echo of the London dream. We are all in this together, but because the others are less familiar with London they transplant the image to their own locale. They are seeing it, but not quite seeing it.

I believe that this thing is coming to British shores, and it will hit a city of eight million people with huge force.

Monday, 18th of June

This is what the apocalypse looks like.
When we close our eyes, this is the consensus of what we see.

Something will fall from the sky. Those of us in the commune will be stood outside our homes (or perhaps the houses of our loved ones) when something will tear up the sky and smash into the Earth. Then there will be destruction and devastation, whole cities will burn and ash clouds miles wide will spread over continents. There will be survivors though. All of us in The Manor seem destined to live through this cataclysm. However a large number of the other ‘lucky ones’ are infected with something, so that humanity is still alive but the nature of it is completely ordered. The majority of those who are left are wild with bloodlust and determined to tear their fellow man apart.

Sunday, 17th of June

We are now all together. There are twelve of us, disciples if you will of Dexter Phillips. (We all realise how biblical this looks and joke about it from time to time – but until we find more people who have these dreams then that’s the way it is). We get up to a ringing bell in the morning, which frankly is as relieving as any bell rang at the end of a particularly fraught round of boxing, and then stagger down to the breakfast room. After we eat some cereal we get together and explore what we all saw the night before, how the images are linked and what they all mean. It’s wearisome work, but the theories are forming and it feels like we’re getting somewhere.
All of us together we are a commune, a collective – one that is working for the noble cause of saving the world. And perhaps I for one would feel better about all of that, if it wasn’t for the intensity of the dreams and the doom hanging over us the whole time.

Wednesday, 13th of June

The internet connection isn’t all it could be at The Manor, but apparently that will be fixed soon.
Still people come – from different backgrounds, countries and cultures – all of us brought together by these pictures in our head and Dexter Phillips’ promise that combined we can make a difference. There are eight of us now, with the other five expected by the end of the week.

The dreams are getting more intense. We stare at each other warily in the morning, each of us wondering who’ll be the first to broach the subject of the horrible things we saw last night. Dexter Phillips is incredibly excited though, he thinks that whatever it is will be coming soon. That if we don’t act – and if they don’t listen to us – then the world by the end of the year will be totally unrecognisable.

Sunday, 10th of June

We are in Wales.
Dexter Phillips wasn’t lying when he said he comes from money, as I am typing this from a grand (if slightly needing maintenance) house on the West Wales coast. There is a Welsh name for it, but Dexter – and apparently the entire Phillips family – refer to it as The Manor. It’s the kind of place that once upon a time would have had servants, but now we are self sufficient. There is a rota for cooking breakfast and dinner, and in-between we talk about our dreams and what they mean to the wider world.

After Dexter Phillips and Denise, Julie and I were the first to arrive. We were surprised to find ourselves given single bedrooms. Even when we reminded Dexter that we’re a couple, the sleeping arrangements didn’t alter. The most important things, he said, are the dreams and nothing (including amorous encounters) must be allowed to get in the way of those.

Arriving over the course of the week was Jessica, a hairdresser from Hull; Tom an Australian accountant; and Hans, a footballer from a lower league German team. There are more on their way, we’re promised, but the dynamic between the group as it is now is good. When you’re seeing the same pictures each night, then you do have a lot in common.

Maybe it’s the clean coastal air, or maybe it’s the fact that so many of us are together – but the dreams seem even more intense out here. They are the same dreams, I am still seeing London and my home within the city, but that seems a long way away now.